Maybe I’m just an asshole but I don’t understand why everyone thinks they’re so unique and misunderstood.
I’ve recently discovered that one of my biggest pet peeves is people that talk about their suicide attempts. Here’s the thing: It’s not that I don’t care. It’s not that I judge anyone that’s dealt with suicidal ideation. I just don’t think it’s something you should be throwing out onto the table every time you meet someone. Here’s the other thing: If your alleged suicide attempts were that powerful and influential on the life that you have now - that’s not something you’re going to take lightly.
There are people in the world that attempt or commit suicide every single day. I understand very well that depression and mental disorders cause you to think in very different ways. You think you’re alone. You think you’re worthless. I get it. I’ve been there. But if you’re going to pursue a life of trying to help others in the same position, then you should know how to be tactful. You should also know, very well, that you’re not the only person in the world that’s been 15 years old.
I’ve dealt with a lot of things in my own life so far. I’ve overcome chemical addiction, I’ve stopped sleeping with older men in exchange for drugs or money, and that’s something it took a long time for me to learn to do without. Especially since I started when I was 12.
But the thing is - I don’t think this makes me any more special than you, or anyone else. Because I know that I’m not the only person to ever do those things. It’s also not something that I’m going to share with anyone and everyone that I come in contact with. No one wants to hear about how a 12 year old boy was raped by a 45 year old man in the middle of the woods. Do you realize how attention seeking it would be for me or anyone to throw that out every two seconds?
I’m not really sure what this rant is supposed to achieve. I also have no intentions to offend anyone. It’s just been something I’ve been thinking about all day that I just really wanted to express somewhere.
THIS. It’s so rampant in the gay community (bringing up a suicidal past) and for good reason, it’s tiring but it’s a reality that we have to face. There’s a better way to cope with the pain than using a negative past as a crutch, stop living in the past and live for the future. Yes it happened and don’t you ever forget it, but you can’t let it define your future self. Don’t dwell on the past, think positive thoughts. You’re alive, and you’re AMAZING! …don’t forget we’re all rooting for you! xo
Anonymous asked: LISTEN TO ME. YOU ARE A UNICORN. YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING.
Computing message “beep beep sparkle beep,” means “I love you” anon.
I’m waiting for the day when I finally tell myself “I’m worth it,” and it doesn’t feel like a pretty lie I tell myself to convince myself because I actually believe it.